Abounding Faith

 tulips by sabrina FINAL EDIT

You’re a never ending roller coaster ride
taking me to the highest level of contentment
and then soaring downhill together
to my lowest moments of worry

You sit with me through plummeting tears
as my sadness whispers uncontrollably
and I’m forever wishing the answers
would arrive soon all wrapped up and pretty

You are compassionate, so I give you
my trials that steal sleep from me in the night
now bringing peace to my emotions and
calming the control I no longer want

Whether the road is smooth or uneven
You’ll always have a special place
in the pocket resting beside my heart
and I’ll never let you drift away

Lauren Scott © 2014
Photo: Sabrina Beauchamp

Infinite Melody

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My universe lingered timelessly in a lonely state
where darkness followed relentlessly with no possible escape
Now you’ve altered my world since the start of that day
when my vision of life transformed in euphoric ways
The beating of my heart changed to an unknown tempo
and the bird’s debut ended with a beautiful crescendo
Your arms were there to catch me when I was about to fall
to save me from a shadow that kept me feeling small
How kind of you to share your love, to think of me as worthy
to look beneath my saddened soul and see my genuine beauty
Where gray was very greedy, you gently placed a star
shedding light upon my sky, erasing all my scars
I will show you equal devotion that you have revealed to me
and together we’ll fly in truth and trust for all eternity

Lauren Scott © 2013
Photo: Google Images

Healing

painting

Gasping for air
with my head under water
lungs on the verge
of exploding

I’m in orbit
heading into a world
of other dimensions
where gravity
has no bearing

but stubbornness
can be a positive thing
because I have no plans
for drowning

In fact, I see a tiny speck
of light, touching
the sparkling surface
and I wonder now,
how long its been there

I’ll be alright
I’ll be alright

It’s a vital collaboration
between mind and limbs
in order for broken pieces
to be repaired
for me to begin again

and even with tears
trailing down my face
their cool embrace
brings joy

where I once felt pain

Lauren Scott © 2013
Photo: Google Images

(a little fiction; a little not)

All Over Again

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I thought we had bid farewell
instead, while sweeping
under one of our rugs
its existence glowed
like an October prank
My sanity experienced
an immediate tug

The spirits of my shoulders
dropped with great speed
and the weight of their tears
caused my heart to sink
into a dark abyss
with rejuvenated fears

I remember being thrilled
with its absence
dancing through my days
now I look at my reflection
in the mirror and see traces
of a familiar, emotional maze

The need to blame
is so very strong
I know it’s not right
but I long for someone
to offer their hand,
catch my pleading words
as they roll from my lips
and for a face with kind eyes
to tell me this is just
a vivid nightmare,
not a rewritten script

Repeatedly, I reach for strength,
at times, feeling my fingers slipping
As I kneel, with folded hands,
my heart begs for another error
I silently pray for this presence
to stop haunting our days
and for a beautiful soul to be spared

Lauren Scott © 2013

Refreshing

Rain pours in droves
clearing the drain
to my unhappiness
the air is fresh
I inhale the
fragrance of hope
my heart 
resumes beating
and my lips
form a smile
again

LScott © 2013

Direction

windy road

So many corners to turn
I yearn to know
which way to go
left might be right
but my sight is blurry
as my heart is hurting
and the road is
never-ending
I long for
that green meadow
up ahead
dotted with flowers
to ease my thoughts
for bees and
butterflies
to make me smile
I haven’t smiled
in awhile
Instead
my stomach
remains in knots
I’m not one to dwell
on the impossible
yet, I’ve run into
a brick wall
It’s very tall 
and climbing walls
has never been
a strength

but now
is as good as any

to begin
again

LScott © 2013

Photo Credit: Google Images

Missing Piece

Though glowing rays
warm my window panes
I function in a daze
my nights remain cloudy
I dream only in grays
and when I reach for your hand
feeling only the sheets
my heart shatters once again
adding another piece

 to the pile in my mind
of brokenness from the past
promises flowing
down the river
crashing with a splash
I miss your eyes
how they touched
deep into my soul
and how your loving words
made my heart whole

 but I’ll find worthiness
on a dusty shelf
and lying beside it
will be the strength I seek
for even without your love
I won’t remain weak

© LScott 2013
(Author’s Note: Fiction)

 

 

Roller Coaster

I used to love the excitement
the anticipation while standing in line
butterflies fluttering inside
energy from those around
speeding thrills of going up, up, up
then all the way down

Now my mind has changed
I’m not fond of this new ride I’m on
No ticket bought, just stumbled upon
Too chilling for my aching heart
Thrills turn to fear
Please let me off before I fall apart

© LScott 2013

Love’s Appeal – Re-post

I long to be your only star
within your sky of dreams
I ask you to open your heart
repair the broken seams
I apologize for words unsaid
for those said time and again
To hurt you was not my intention
I often wonder how you’ve been
I only wish to see you smile
hear you laugh among the trees
I only long to hold you close
feel your breath beside the breeze
Chances don’t come freely
I know this in my heart
My plea you’ll hear one more time
to keep us ne’er apart

© LScott 2012

(I’m having severe writer’s block,
so please forgive the re-post.
For those who have seen this before,
I hope you’re not too bored. )  🙂