Motherhood

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You are young now
and won’t be able
to understand
my innermost feelings

So many emotions
are felt with you;
the joy I feel when
I see you smile
and hear you laugh,
the pain I feel
when I hear you cry,
the warmth of your little
arms wrapped around me

I want to protect you
from harm,
shelter you from evil,
yet, life will bring
experiences
meant only for you
and I’ll have to
learn to let go

In the years to come
I’ll marvel in
each new change
I see in your eyes,
your voice,
your mind

All of us will do some growing
as we get older and
it will be a new adventure
of happiness and maybe
some sadness, too,
but it will all be worth
more than anything else
in the world

You are my precious gifts,
my sweet boy and girl

Please know in your hearts
I’m your Mommy now but
will always be your 
mother,
loving you more

every minute of
each day

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Lauren Scott © 2015
(written in 1999 and now
my sweet boy and girl
are soon to be 20 and
24 years old)

 

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Precious Time Together

When we were young with no worries 024

Can we help in the kitchen?
Can we watch you cook?
I’d rather do this myself
then I stop and look
at the innocent faces

so eager to learn
selfish, no more,
it’s now their turn
Clothes will get dirty

dust will appear
chores never ending
that much is clear
So I say to them,

I’ll play and read books
I’ll teach you to be
great little cooks
For as you grow
and think of your Mother
Just know my love for you
is like no other

Lauren Scott © 1999

I wrote this years ago when my children were little
and spending time with them was far more important
than getting things done around the house.

I hope you’re leaving here with a smile and 
I appreciate your visit. Have a wonderful weekend! 

Rock ‘n’ Roll, Snow & Irish Cream ♥

 

mt baldy lodge

Today, my hubby and I celebrate our 26th First Date Anniversary! 🙂 Yep, we remember these silly dates and though it sounds cliche, it still feels like yesterday. He was 27; I was 26. We lived in so. Calif. at the time and he took me to the Sycamore Inn for a very nice dinner, then dancing at Mt. Baldy Lodge & Restaurant! An awesome setting in the mountains! He chose this same place 6 months later when he proposed (after a ski lift ride to the top)…We then spent 3 New Year’s Eves here, dancing our socks off with a bunch of friends! I remember drinking Irish Cream Coffees (yum) and cooling off on the deck overlooking the snowy view, after dancing! Truly romantic and magical. ♥

irish cream coffee

Next month, we’ll celebrate our 25th Wedding Anniversary. I don’t think either of us can believe the time we’ve spent together is now wrapped up in photographs and not so current. Our relationship hasn’t been perfect. As far as I know, no relationship is…along with the laughs, we’ve shed tears for different reasons. However, we’ve managed to, instead of stumbling over the bumps, step over them and move forward…

I know of several couples who have divorced after 20 some years of marriage and it breaks my heart. I don’t want to be a statistic and so I have a vision of us rocking together on the front porch when we’re older, watching our grandchildren play.  Since our kids aren’t “there” yet, for having children, our vision is “way” into the future! This vision, though, will remain our anchor and strength to persevere anything thrown in our path that is not welcomed! God willing, we’ll have the chance to rock ‘n” roll in rocking chairs! 🙂

Living together for many, many years, married or not, takes work. It’s not a piece of cake. Well, sometimes, it is, but other times, it’s not so sweet. Fortunately, Matt and I are both talkers…we have no trouble communicating, which I think is the key. Holding things in only gives trouble fuel to smolder.

So after almost 25 years of marriage, our kids aren’t little and precious anymore. They’re both in college and luckily, responsible young adults. Whether they like it or not, they’ll always be our “precious babies!” I don’t know what we’ve done right, but we must have done something because we are so blessed. And I mean this with all sincerity and the least bit of boasting…

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A dark (health) cloud still insists on looming over us (one of the bumps), but with and through our lasting love for each other and our son and daughter, we’ll get through it, no matter what!

matt and lauren for blog

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So…Happy “First Date” Anniversary, Honey!
You were my best friend in the late 80’s when we met.

You still are to this day and always will be.

I Love You.

L xo ♥

Half Empty Nest

Life sure tugs at our hearts, doesn’t it? I’m thinking as I type and don’t have time to edit, so please bear with anything that may not make sense. 

Some changes are good, positive events that push us in a better direction. They help us grow. Some aren’t so good, in fact, they’re tragic and very painful. Fortunately, right now, the change about to take place on Saturday is a great one. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t tug, though.

I just feel like talking and I hope not to bore you. Many of you have experienced this already and many will in the near or distant future…Our daughter is moving out for the first time, as a Junior transfer student in her new university. It’s awesome; we jumped for joy when she was accepted. And now that time is no longer down the road a few months…it’s here. Very surreal in so many ways. The good thing is she’ll only be less than two hours away. She won’t be across the country or in another country (I’m consoling myself), so this is good. 

Sibling support

With her bro at her Community College Graduation.

Our living room is full of her boxes. Her belongings because she’ll be in an apartment and not a dorm room. We have had fun shopping for new stuff; that’s always a joy, especially spending time with her…my son has even teased her about having more room in the bathroom, once she leaves and wanting to turn her bedroom into whatever! He keeps this whole thing light-hearted! Well, she’s not out completely; the apartment is furnished, so her furniture will remain with us and she is welcome home anytime. Even after she graduates, who knows if she’ll need to come back home to live. We leave that option open, always. So we won’t make any drastic changes in her room, just yet. But, someday, it will make a great office! Just sayin’! 🙂

It’s our job as parents to raise our children in the best way we know..to lay the foundation, a solid one from where they can grow. My husband and I have done that. And now it’s her job to begin a new chapter, make her own path and continue growing into a beautiful, responsible adult.

Now we have a new job; to let go. I’ve had a few nights this week where I’ve become teary right when my head hits the pillow (thus, my prior post to this one). Yes, it’ll be sad to not have her here with us, in our house. But I tend to worry; we just want her to be safe. (I know, move on, right?) That’s the tough part of letting go because events like this are out of our control. But the tears also fall for joy and excitement for her. We’re so happy for the opportunities she’ll have, the people she’ll meet, as well as, her accomplishments when she graduates.

In a nutshell, LIFE IS GOOD! (but keep the tissue handy) 

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Our Graduate.

  I will end with a little something I wrote:

“We have prepared for this moment,
it would come we have known.
It’s time now for her
to chase dreams of her own.”

I apologize for “talking your ear off”
but I thank you for taking the time to “listen”

and if you have any reassuring feedback,
I would love to read it!
Hugs, Lauren ♥

Identity

I feel like a machine
(not a mom, a wife, or a human being)
one that’s shiny and not too old
I could be silver; I could be gold
One that stands 5’7” in height
and would be useful day or night
This is just what I am
A bright, polished ATM

LScott © 2013

🙂

Roller Coaster

I used to love the excitement
the anticipation while standing in line
butterflies fluttering inside
energy from those around
speeding thrills of going up, up, up
then all the way down

Now my mind has changed
I’m not fond of this new ride I’m on
No ticket bought, just stumbled upon
Too chilling for my aching heart
Thrills turn to fear
Please let me off before I fall apart

© LScott 2013

Youth – Tanka

Hope for our futures

lies in their hearts and spirits

through bubble gum and

hopscotch, pig tails and scraped knees –

our job to love and nurture

© LScott 2012

Photo: My son and daughter
14 years ago